Everything’s gonna be okay (Tyrus week Day3)

Hey so I am really nervous because this is my first fanfiction in english. Sorry for the mistakes, I hope you can still understand the story though x) I wanted to write it so badly so here we go! Enjoy!

(Ps: I wrote it before the final ep so…)

“It’s been a week since you are together, right?”

With deadly eyes, Cryus looked up to his best friend, Buffy. The girl grimmed as she took a sip from the milkshake. They were sitting in The Spoon but maybe because of his bad mood even the baby taters didn’t taste as good as before.

“Yeah, it’s been a week” he answered. He seemed more strained than happy.

”Hey” the girl looked confused as watching Cyrus “You don’t seem happy. Something happened? Did TJ do something?”

”It‘s rather what I didn’t do” he murmured but immediately regretted it seeing Buffy’s reaction.

“WHAT THAT JERK —— “ She jumped up from her seat and was already ready to find TJ and beat him but for the love of god, Cyrus stopped her.

“Hey, calm down! I didn’t mean that, jesus, Buffy!“

“Okay” It didn’t seem she was fully convinced, even so she sat back and without being ready to kill TJ, her eyes narrowed as asked Cyrus “Then? What happened?”

Cyrus took a deep breath. The girl was his best friend but when the time comes to talk about love, romantic feelings or relationship with TJ, it was hard, regarding the fact that Buffy and the guy has had a rough history before they accepted each others in the sake of Cyrus’s happiness.

He plucked up his courage. Buffy was always there, she was the one he came out and if he didn’t tell the reason soon, that milkshake would land on his head.

“Okay” Cyrus looked around, not if someone would be interested in their conversation “You remember Iris, don’t you? Well… you remember that we used to… kiss”

Buffy eyes widened as soon as she understood the problem.

“Oh”

”Yep”

“Do you mean…? You still don’t…?”

Cyrus nodded. As always, when the girl wanted to assure him about her support, she reached out for his hands on the table and with a light smile she tilted her head. Times like this Cyrus remember how foolish from him to be afraid of Buffy’s opinion after all they are friends.

“Cyrus. It’s not that big problem. Although I don’t… well, you will know when that moment comes and it will natural to do it. But forcing it won’t be good. So just relax! Everything’s gonna be okay”

“Thanks” smiled gratefully Cyrus

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Cyrus walked out of The Spoon in better mood than he had been entered there. With hands in pockets he started walking down the street to the school where he supposed to meet with TJ who stayed there for extra math classes with a specialist. Cyrus’s intent at the start to help him was refused by TJ “if you were my teacher, then you would be the only one thing I would focus on. Math has not a chance against you”

He smiled like an idot who is in love. Well, he was an idiot in love. He loved TJ so much and knew how many times TJ tried to kiss him but he avoided it. Why is this so hard to kiss? Even If Iris was a girl and it was weird to kiss her, Cyrus was afraid that he didn’t like kissing. What if is it not that good as it said? What if he won’t enjoy with TJ?

Cyrus’s heart skipped a beat as he looked up arriving at the school and saw TJ standing few steps away from him at the entrance gate. Who knows how long he had been waiting for and watching Cyrus before he was noticed.

“Hi” TJ greeted him with a big smile and automatically leaned down to steal a kiss from him but Cyrus panicked and turned away.

Ouch

TJ stepped back, his face went blank. Neither of them said a word.

“Uhmm… how was it? I mean the class” Cyrus forced a smile with the intention to make up the awkard situation.

“Good”

Silence. Awkward silence. It didn’t go well.

“Hey, I am so—- “

“Let’s go” he interrupted, and with a gloomy sigh he started walking down the street in the direction of the park where was their own spot. Swings.

Cyrus tried to reach for his hands, but, as he felt what he want, TJ took hos hands in pockets and didn’t look at the boy. He was definitely hurt by Cyrus actions.

Abruptly he stepped in front of TJ almost made him fall from the surprise move.

“Are you okay?” asked worringly.

“I should be the one who ask this” he responded dryly.

“What?”

“Okay, I’ve had enough” he sighed dramatically while he sat down on the brench next to them. He was at the same height as Cyrus “Is there a problem? Did I do something? Or… or you don’t…?”

“Wait, what, no! Nothing like this I just —-“

“Cyrus. I am your boyfriend but honestly I don’t feel like I am” he incredulously shook his head “I’m going home”

“Wait”

Before he could stand up to go anywhere, Cyrus pressed his shoulders and pushed down to the brench. Not if he would be strong enough to do that, therefore TJ was the one who let him stop him. Cyrus understood TJ more than anyone else just looking into his eyes he knew TJ wasn’t angry more like… afraid. TJ was afraid that he is the reason that Cyrus doesn’t kiss him.

He wanted to tell TJ how much he loves him. He wanted to show him how many things he would saceifice for him, for his love, he wanted to tell a monologue about the true love, soulmates, the stars he saw when he was staring into his eyes, the masterpieces which couldn’t fight with TJ’s perfectness, he wanted to pour him his love but Cyrus couldn’t find the words to describe the feelings inside him.

He loved him too much to be able speak. Why was he afraid? He shouldn’t be. He’s with TJ. And yet, he looked so vague right now

“Why…”

Instead of saying words aloud they drowned in each others gazes, tell a story of feelings without any sound. Like the world stopped moving, like none was living but them; They were so close to eachother, they believed their hearts and thoughts became one.

When that moment comes

Cyrus was the one who leaned closer to TJ with closed eyes. He didn’t kissed him though; only two centimeters needed until their lips meet.

“Are you okay with this?” He felt TJ’s breath on his face.

“Yeah” His answer had made the boy smile before both of them leaned into a kiss. In that moment Cyrus felt nothing but love and happiness; kissing is really wonderful. He shouldn’t be afraid because as long as he is with TJ everything’s gonna be okay.